Sachi's Journal

...but I'd rather  not.

Hm....not much I can say in here. I just found an old christmas card that I found when I was with my ex-boyfriend. I was thinking of giving it to him, since I wrote him a poem as gift. Anyways, I saw the card and I ripped it to shreds. It felt so bloody GOOD! x3

Well...hmm....I finally reached up to 100 posts....so now I'm happy. I never actually was into the forum thing until I came on here. I tried on this one anime site called, Janime. But the people on the forum were dull and never ever happened. Well, except I did somehow manage to attract this 21 year-old guy from Cali. Unfortunatelty, when I told him I only wanted to be friends, he said that he didn't want that and said that "it's best that we never talk....ever." Whatever.

I'm just not interested into a long-distant relationship. They just never work out for me. I mean, I need to actually SEE the person in real life. I need to see how they interact with people around them and who they really are. It's different from when you're seeing a person compared to when a person is talking about themselves to you. You can never be sure what's the truth.

Sigh....these SATs courses are gonna kill me. But I'm just gonna have to try the best I can. After all, this is my life that's practically on stake. I've been too lazy with my school work this year and I regret it. I'll have to make it up this year. This year, I'm not going to fool around. I'm going to do the best I can. I'm hoping that the skills I'm gaining in this SAT course will help me get into Georgetown University.

Or for my father's sake...at least get accepted into Columbia University. But I don't want to go to that school!

Okay, get this. I'm best friends with my ex-boyfriend's best friend. Is that so bad? Because I feel like lately, my ex-boyfriend is going around all his friends and girlfriend(s), saying negative things about me. I mean, I don't want to jump to conclusion, because I really trust my best friend, but lately it seems like he doesn't want to talk to me that much. And when he does, its like he's busy with something else and has to go or something.

Like today for instance, I was IMing him, since I haven't talked to him in a long while. But he barely repsonded to me and his excuse was that his niece was trying to tie him up with rope. He didn't speak for like an hour so I left, obviously knowing that I was wasting my time trying to talk with someone who was busy. Anyways, I would just be in his way of his "bonding" time with his niece.

Maybe I shouldn't be friends with him anymore...because obviously, he showing me signs that he doesn't want to get involved with me.  Oh well....c'est la vie.

Gahh....SATs are going to be the death of me. Tomorrow I have to take the practice test for math and I'm trying to work a little bit harder each day. But at the same time, I'm trying to maintain my swimming status. I mean, I'm not a fantastic swimmer, but I want to at least remain as a dependable one on the team. Also, when school starts up again, I'm going to have to replace the best swimmers for the butterfly and 200m Freestyle....xP

then SATS and college hunting....I'm already looking up. So far, this is what I've got:

1.) NYU, 2.) Georgetown University, 3.) Columbia University (Though, I doubt I'll get in), 4.) Anywhere near Jersey or New York...

So, yesturday, I watched episode 91 of D. Gray-Man, which I was so psyched about! I've been reading the Japanese manga so I was waiting for General Cross to appear. (At last!) Haha! Now, I guess I'll just continue reading FullMetal-Alchemist on onemanga.com.

Well, the most I can say is that I'm EXTREMELY happy that Heroes is coming backk!  Though, I'm also kinda sad because most of all my friends left for some kind of schooling course and I'm still stuck in Jersey, taking SAT classes myself. It's just depressing, so I'm probably going to be really lonely and just stuck studying. Ugh...Oh wellz.

Well, that's all I can say for now. =P

Well, can't say a lot. Since I have a xanga and I seem to write whatever I can on there. I don't really like to talk about myself that much, which is what I found out when I had my last boyfriend. he always seemed to ask about, "how was your day?", "tell me about your [event of day]." From there on, I started to hate talking about myself. Maybe its because I don't think of myself any "special" so, I get bored with talking about me.

Oh well...hmm...what to write though...

Oh! My 4th of July! (of course!) Well, pretty much what happened was that my dad, being a complete jerk, went off to the horse races in Belmont while my mum, uncle, lil bro, cousin, and I went to go see the movie Wall-E. It was cute.

From that point, we went to Best Buy's where I was looking through the MP3 section, hoping to find a Sansa MP3. My current one is breaking on me, litterally, the screen is cracked and the ink splattered everywhere and I lost the back. So I was checking that out and I wanted to get the Sansa Mini Clip, since I occasionally work-out and it would be convient to have it clip on to me instead of holding it when I have to lift weights.

Just overall, it would be easier for me to have my MP3 clinging onto me than having to hold it, constantly. Well, looks like to me I'm going to have to save up at least $60 for the Mini Clip. *Sighs*....

Ehh...then I started to work on my music, trying to create my own songs. It's working out pretty good, but I needed to use some of my older bro's help. Then watched the Macy's fireworks which, I was kind of bummed out about because I couldn't go actually see the fireworks performing in my town because it started to drizzle and my mum freaked out and claimed, "it's much better watching it on tv then getting water in your eyes!"

....And now older bro is fuming because his "some-what" girlfriend is out celebrating the 4th of July with her GAY friend (who for some reason my bro is jealous of). Yeah, I know my bro's pretty lame for getting all upset when it's clear as day that the guy friend of his girlfriend is into guys......not girls!

Hmm.....and just watching the Twilight Zone Marathon going on. That's pretty much what I'm doing. I must be bored out of my freakin' skull because I never really had a journal because I would always have someone to talk to. Now, this summer it seems like most of my closest friends are away and I'm just here chilling by myself. I guess, by the end of this summer, you'll be hearing more about my days....=P

*Sighs* oh well.....